Good Lord the Evil Trainer was EXTRA Evil today!  My ass hurts, my legs hurt, my arms hurt, my shoulders hurt…  I am just a giant mass of hurt!  He’s going old skool on my ass – part of today’s torture involved a giant tractor tire and a sledge hammer… But if helps me reach my goal, then it’s what I gotta do.  All I can say is tomorrow morning’s water aerobics is gonna be very hurty.

I am NOT looking forward to going back to work tomorrow – these past two days have been soooo enjoyable.  But since I have yet to win powerball, I guess I have to go back.

I’d also like to say I’ve reached the following “Milestones”:

  1. 1 week since my last pop (diet or otherwise)
  2. 1 week since my last vending machine snack
  3. 2.2 weeks since my last pizza
  4. 58 days since my last fast food!!!!  :D

I need to get it back.  I spent this afternoon in the arms of Pizza Hut – and I don’t even LIKE Pizza Hut, I was just craving it…

I’m sure part of it was due to work stress – the maintenance I had to work on did not go at ALL smoothly partly because I didn’t do enough research on some of the software upgrades.  And I’m VERY hard on myself when I drop the ball on something for work…

I didn’t make it to the gym for my cardio, but I’m going tomorrow morning.

Pilates yesterday, Evil Trainer today, Evil Trainer tomorrow, and Pilates Saturday….  I may not survive…  The muscles near my “lady parts” and my ass are killing me!  And after today’s workout, I suspect my shoulders/arms will be killing me tomorrow.  I used to be able to see the Evil Trainer 4 days in a row and not be dying from it, but clearly my year off (the sabbatical as ET and I now call it) was not the best thing I could have done for myself…

I can tell you I will have EARNED the lunch tomorrow with a friend and a FABULOUS Sunday Brunch at Le Central on Sunday with the BGBF….  Too bad cassoulet isn’t a brunch dish… Apres brunch we are hitting a new (to us) yarn shoppe, then off to our favorite local chocolate shop and spice shop… And then it will be time for tea…  It’s going to be a wonderful Sunday!

Next week (probably Wednesday) is weigh/measure day.  I haven’t stepped on the scale this month, and frankly I don’t care what it says – I’m more interested in what my measurements are… I’ve been VERy good with seeing the Evil Trainer and doing Pilates this month so I’m hoping my measurements will reflect that.

And I found out on Tuesday that the place I’m contracting at is going to extend me for another month – so I’m employed through February.  *sigh of relief*  And the company I’m sub contracting to on this gig may have a couple other things for me if they can get their clients on board.  *fingers crossed*  I’m still looking just in case things don’t work out, but I’m hoping they do and I don’t have to go back to being a “real” employee for a while yet…

The Evil Trainer did my measurements this morning.  Several were down, a couple were up, and some others didn’t change.  I’ve updated my “weighing in” tab with all the gory details.

I mainly went down in my arms & legs – which is fine especially when you consider I call my calves “cows”…  Now please nobody take offense at the next comment – but the crazies in my head are now saying I’m just going to turn into one of those fat women who carry all the weight between their neck & hips – and have stick skinny arms & legs… I’m not saying that’s bad, I’m just saying that I prefer my fat all over shape.  :)

We didn’t set specific goals for January – but I’m going to try and lose 7 pounds…

I’m also not setting any goals for minutes working out or doing cardio.  I’m just going to make it a goal to not cancel sessions.

And a more important goal f9r me at the moment is to find a new job.  Apparently the place that was all hot and heavy on me Monday has apparently changed their minds.  I haven’t had any call to schedule the in-person interview they were so desparate to do this week.

Oh well, c’est la vie…

I’ve also had 2 run-ins with pizza this week (I KNOW it’s only Wednesday!), and an encounter with Wendys.  And even as I type this, I’m thinking I want pizza again tonight…  So I need to bring back my focus on staying away from that crap.

No – not talking about weight…  Talking about work.

So I haven’t been happy doing what I do for several years now, but it pays well, and I need to live and be able to even think about retiring some day… Damn the golden handcuffs…

The contract I’m working on now is winding down and I can’t even fill 40 hours a week with work.  So I’ve been kind of looking.  I had a line on a job downtown, didn’t know much about it, but then I heard this morning the job was filled.  Okay, no biggie, time to think about looking for a different kind of job.

Then around lunch time I hear the job is still open, and they want to talk to me ASAP.  So I send my resume, and have a phone interview with the hiring manager and the other guy in the group.  Work does sound interesting, and the two guys sound nice, and now they want me to come in ASAP for an in person gang interview.

I’m going to go ahead and do the interview as soon as I get word they have it scheduled…  But I’m wondering if I’m just going after this job just to have a job…  Granted in these times that’s not a bad thing, but it seems to be all I ever do.

I suppose it would be a different thing altogether if I had some specific fabulous new job/career in mind – but I don’t.  I have NO idea what I would want to do – NONE.  Well, that’s not strictly true – I was chatting with the BGBF and here’s what I told him I wanted:

  • Job I like
  • Job I don’t have to take it home with me (i.e., on-call pager)
  • Job where I don’t have to manage pissy little sysadmins

This job is not a management job, it DOES involve on-call duty, and I may or may not like it.

But it’s a job….

Perhaps I’m jumping the gun, it’s not like I have an offer letter…

Life would be so much easier if I was so rich I could just do any job I wanted and not have to worry about how much or little it paid….

Sounds like someone’s got a case of the Mondays….

In addition to my annual Holiday funk, I’m also stressed because the contract I’m working on is winding up, and I don’t have another job lined up.  I’m looking, and I’ve applied for some things, but still the stress…  It doesn’t help that I’m not terribly busy on the contract I’m working on now – I’m bored and boredom is not pretty on me.  It usually means spending WAY too much money.  Thankfully I’ve resisted that urge for the most part (Okay, there was an “incident” Saturday at a Yarn shop – but the bag was 25% off! ;)

Merry Christmas to me!!

I’m also glad I didn’t order the furniture I had planned on ordering – so I can squirrel away some money to keep me going until march or so if need be.  And Praise Jebus I have ZERO credit card debt!!  Just mortgage & car payment (and the monthly bills that go with living).  So I guess I could be in way worse shape.

Haven’t done well on the eating AT ALL the past week or so – there were 2 binges (thankfully no purges), but today was a better day.  Haven’t worked out at all for over a week, haven’t done much of anything at all.  Of course it’s been bitterly cold here for the past 4 or 5 days so that just makes me want to curl up under a blanket and watch movies.

And at this time of the year the movies are all the happily-ever-after movies (okay, I admit I do watch the stupid damn Lifetime movies), which adds to the holiday funk.  But they are like crack to me – no matter how shitty they are, and they are almost always shitty.

So I’m just going to hang in there and try to do better or at the very least, try not to do worse.  And thanks all for the lovely encouraging comments – they are much appreciated!

It was a good weekend – even with the foot of snow I had to shovel today  :)  The snow kept me from having to drive into the office to do some systems work I had scheduled, and I was able to do it all from home in my robe – which is ALWAYS a good thing!

Did pretty good on the food this weekend – although I did wait WAY too long to eat yesterday, and then overate when I did eat.  Came out okay on calories, but I was really uncomfortably full for several hours – a feeling I did not enjoy.  Today I’ve done much better I’m pleased to report.  And I have to say that being “just full” feels a billion times better than feeling like I’ve been stuffed to the gills.  Not a fan of feeling hungry, but “just full” is nice.

Something odd to report as well – had the TV on (as always – it’s my noise in the house) and a Pizza commercial came on – and it didn’t even look good to me!  Didn’t make me want pizza at all.  It was an odd thing to realize – because seeing some sort of food is generally a guarantee that I will then crave that food.

All in all it was an amazingly good week for me!  And I’m hoping the upcoming week is just as good!  Have to take the good weeks and make the most of them while they last…

Next weekend I have to pick up the paint and supplies to need to get the living/dining room painted over the long Turkey Day weekend.  As part of Adbusters Buy Nothing Day on 11/27, I’m vowing from dusk till dawn no shopping, no TV, no radio, no use of my car, and no computer use – no TV is going to be a killer for me.  BUT I’ll be spending the daylight hours painting upstairs where there is no TV – as long as I stay away from the TV downstairs I’ll be fine.  And no FB for a day is nothing but good.

So my plan for this week is:

  1. Evil Trainer 2x
  2. Pilates 1x
  3. Continue to kick ass